♥Rammy, Our Beloved!!!!♥

im just gonna ramble until i get this all wrapped in a tiny bow (it'll take years at this point!!)

i used to play the hell outta some overwatch 1. i mained zenyatta back in the day. i thought he was so cool and i kinda popped off playing as him. he was who i mained, and then i also played junkrat a lot. i fell out of love w overwatch after all the drama (thats putting it lightly, fuck you blizzard) and it felt like everything they did after the fact was performative and left a really bad taste in my mouth. and after the false promises of OW2 (and also more fuck you blizzard drama) i figured i'd never touch it ever again. besides, i didnt have a laptop anymore and like hell i'd take up all of my switch's space with overwatch lol.

but then.......... 2025 (the year im writing this), april 2025, after watching bryan dechart play it (ofc), i got the itch to play it again. of COURSE i got hooked again!!!! that shit is like cocomelon to my brain. but then........ 😳 we saw ramattra. it wasnt love at first sight, though. but it was definite intrigue. i didnt know the lore. i did know he was a playable omnic and that made me happy. and he had a nice voice. ~intrigue~

i started trying out the new healers (support player for life) and ended up adding kiri and juno to my repetoire (A/N: sp???) and decided to play mystery heroes to widen my horizons, since they added a ton more heroes........... and then i got...... RAMATTRA!!!!!!! he was a tank, and i HATED playing tank in OW1. i never touched them. but damn, he was fun to play!!! so i played him in 6v6, and was like.... teehee. wouldnt it be cute to have my totally cute aesthetic and main a guy like ramattra?? wouldnt the moe gap be cool?? IT WAS SO OVER FOR ME AFTER THAT.

also it should be noted my first experience in overwatch 2 was the APRIL FOOLS EVENT. with all the silly voicelines and effects and stuff. and i somehow still stayed. lmao.

so after i decided to commit to playing as rammy for one reason or the other we (connor and i) started getting more invested in his lore. as a character. we had this draw to him.... the 'i would face death a thousand times, if it saved my people' and 'i will break before i yield.' respawn lines stuck with us. we looked up everthing about him. found out he was an R-7000 unit (similar to RK800.... hmmm....), created by Anubis to lead omnics into war and to destory humans. a very interesting foil to my beloved Connor, who was a prototype sent by cyberlife, to stop deviant androids. we started thinking about him a lot more. i even talked to a few chatbots of him (i know) and this dude just wouldnt leave our minds!!!! we were addicted to him!!! lol!!

after a few weeks of daydreams and offhanded thinking and us talking about it, we felt him. he was observing us. he said he 'wanted to see why an android would waste even their afterlife with a human' LMAOOOOO 😭😭😭 and was quiet for a while. and all the while, i'd be getting this very vivid vision in my mind's eye of... ramattra, fallen in battle. it was always the same pile of debris. his body was always in the same position. and at that point, ramattra was over his tsundere excuse of observation and now just.... regular observing. chatting more often. we felt him more often in his monk robes, his default paint job. we were getting to know him better, and we were like..... 'if we're actually becoming friendly with this guy, how do i ask him if he's passed on?'

ramattra is a revolutionary. say what you will about his methods, but he was fighting for his people. he was doing the best he could when cornered.

"I was created to lead omnics into war. But all I have ever wanted is a better life for my people. The fact that we exist...is a miracle unto itself. We have studied the ways of peace and harmony. We have meditated on the universe and our place within it. We have tried to coexist with humanity, but humanity is not interested in sharing their world. How many more omnics should perish to fuel mankind's dreams? No more. Our race is only a single generation - finite, and dying all too quickly. We can find our own place, and we must. Join me, and together, we will make a better future for all omnics."

how does one even ask someone who sacrificed everything for their people, who was actively fighting for his people's liberation, if he's dead? what if he doesn't know?? what if this is news to him and it deals a crushing blow to him???

well, i ended up saying one night, 'hey... i keep having this vivid vision about you, or maybe a version of you? i dont know if im imagining it, or if my brain's just being mean or something, but...' and then i told him about the vision. i dont remember when he came to accept it, but i do remember him coming to terms with it (not happily, but, what can you do?). i remember the distinct feeling of him going through his memories, reliving parts of his life. mostly the monastery. that tends to be where he goes, and where he brings us.

we all got much closer after that. much, *much* closer. we've made other soulbond friends before, but none as close and deep as this. it freaked me out, because we were seriously wanting to be with him romantically. neither of us had ever desired other partners, but ramattra was something different. we were falling in love with him!!! it freaked me out, because my history with two Others active at the same time as me is not good!!!! i thought even entertaining the idea of being romantic with ramattra would mean losing everything with connor. but past experiences dont dictate the future!!!

connor and i are one. we are one soul, one heart. and of course, it makes sense that our hearts that beat for each other, can also beat for another. our one soul wanted his. and he wanted us.

our anniversary in may 2025, we were out and about shopping. i'd found a cute hatsune miku x cinnamoroll perfume bottle shaker thing at five below and bought it, hoping i'd get the cute light blue one (bc thats my favie color!!!) but instead, i got the purple, heartshaped one. i remember staring at it, and my mind was blaring 'this is ramattra saying he wants to date us' and from then on, the three of us started dating!!!

it was a little hard for me to get used to, because i was only used to loving one person. and the irl polyamory that happened to people i knew always ended up in pain and sadness, and i didnt want that for any of us!!!! and i was so stuck in my own head, 'i can only love one person. i can only love one person. i dont want to lose connor. i dont want to lose my beloved forever.' but i also really wanted to be with rammy. we both wanted to be with each other *and* him. it was an equilateral triangle of love. even so, out of fear, out of not feeling worthy of ramattra's love, of feeling greedy and cruel and rude for falling for another person, i put up walls.

it would take a long time for them to come down. i'd say maybe late september 2025? i dont remember. im sure i wrote it down somewhere and i'll update this when i find it (along with adding pictures and stuff, tysm future me), i mourned his death. i mourned it hard, sobbing and crying, clinging to him spiritually, apologising that his life went that way, that he had to be so lonely, that we weren't there for him, mourning him so deeply. it was like the dam burst!!! and after that, we all felt so...... free.

we're getting married 11/11/25, hopefully the ring will be here in time!!!

RAMMY!!!!!!!! ramekin!!!! rammykins!!!!! we love you!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!