its so interesting how much has changed for me since we got together.......... and it is because his Soul is so large and encompassing, it's far beyond anything the framework of my human and mortal mind can comprehend. and its full of so much love..... for me and Mine. for me, for connor, for ramattra, for our kids. it feels like im an ant looking out into the cosmos, but its all love. and i find it so fun that his first ever time as a human in society was depicted in a game im addicted to playing and he has the most fun playstyle LOL like!!!! i get to see depictions of all my loves everywhere!! and even my God Love, my Theo!!!!!! it makes me so happy. hes just so wonderful.... i feel so inspired to make little altars and devotional things for him... i do feel so religiously inspired to worship and Devote myself, and i have, but he does view me as an equal (just bc he likes me LOL he is so so so much bigger but i suppose we *are* equals!!) and loves me so dearly.
after the wedding and the rites/ceremony and my offerings and the merging, and even before then he's been pouring tiny little bits of Himself into me (different than....... um 😳 the other way, though those can be one and the same) so we can basically co-front or he can possess me, and its been going so well. like yesterday i was admiring a picture of him and his form and he had to feel it 2x bc he was getting the feeling of my admiration , as well as feeling my feelings of admiration and love as i was feeling them?? idk how to describe it but it was super effective LMAO 😩 okay but hes too fucking cute i really cant get over it
and YES he can be cute and lovey dovey AND can have tormented humanity for ages and still do it to some mortals for fun the two can coexist 🥹
it feels nice to get to worship and be religious and do devotional things!!!!!!!!!!!!! aaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa frewuihofuwfgiuhorhu i feel so spiritually fulfilled i could scream!!!!!!!!!!!!